Someone forwarded me an email from a popular spiritual teacher selling a deck of Miracle Cards. You pick a card and that’s your guidance for the week.
Life is not always the most popular teacher but Her Miracle Deck of guiding cards is visible at every turn.
All we need to do is pick a card. Any card. It’s guaranteed to guide you on your miracle-seeking path, be it a baby journey you’re on, or a road to your most joyful Self.
Yesterday, May 11, I bowed for my 9/11 Bowing Project.
Decided to move my station under a maple tree in front of The Heart of Woodstock store on Tinker street.
My friend Sue came by walking her dogs and she spotted a tiny bird lying on the pavement. He must’ve fallen out of the nest. I felt my body contract at the sight. The sheer fragility of that small body lying on the pavement was for a moment too much to bear.
Another friend came by a few minutes later, we scooped him up with a stack of maple leaves and placed him in one of the nearby flower pots. The only way to save him was to put him back in the nest and we couldn’t do that. But I hope we made him more comfortable.
After I got into my car, I broke down. The bird seemed peaceful. The tears were for us.
If we could look. Get real close and see how fragile we all really are, we’d want to protect each other. Wars would seem as absurd as attacking that fallen bird.
Still bowing to that newborn. My miracle card for the month. A gentle healer who helped me attend to my own “out of the nest” Self.
Have you picked your Miracle Card today, this week, this month? If you have, bring it to the call on Monday. Maybe together we can discern the guidance it offers.
So here is my miracle card of sorts to reflect on this week. So a week in advance of the June 29th visionary call, I sent an email requesting the phone number and mentioning something to work on. And by the time we got to June 29th around 730pm, I realized I had not received the number. Looked back through my emails and nothing received. Waited until 830pm and then went on with my evening. Now this occurrence in hindsight has exposed two miracles for me:
First, the fragile little orphan that sat there thinking on Monday night that thought she Was forgotten, unwanted, and nobody was interested in having her participate. And didn’t want to be a pest (didn’t want to face rejection), so she didn’t bother to send an email asking again for the call in number. Also perhaps a fear orphan, because she was afraid of facing the topic she suggested.
Then, part two of the miracle was that I received a (reassuring) email from Julia asking if I had ever received the number and then indicating that it was a mistake that I didn’t receive it. This made the orphan feel wanted. That somebody noticed that she was missing. And cared to ask what happened.
So many times in life we all feel like nobody cares or we don’t want to bother people. And when someone actually reaches out and picks up that orphan and says ok, I see you, we missed you, are you ok?…it exposes all her fears and says….hey, I give scrap about you. I notice you. You are important to me and this process.
So this is my miracle card for this week. That i am grateful for and I will continue to reflect on.
What a beautiful miracle card!
You are never a “pest” asking for something someone (I) has agreed on delivering.
In fact I ask everyone in my initial Visionary Welcome note to please support me and yourself in making sure that you receive the number. Because our tiny team over here has been known to make mistakes on that front.
You are so right, it’s a miracle when we get to actually experience, how invested the Orphan part of us is, in validating her reality. Such as, no one cares…etc. And how wonderful when we can see it and choose to turn that O into a V.
I love you too, T., thank you for sharing this awesome miracle!
Sendin love right back at you Julia. :) :) :) Thank you for engaging me and encouraging me to engage. Means a lot to me.
New opportunities are heading my way and my miracle it to accept that it IS happening and will continue to happen without something going “wrong”. This is very new to me and I feel like I’m walking a tightrope trying to balance my excitement and fear.. maybe when I release the fear, the rope won’t seem so high?
My miracle card this week is accepting compliments. It is very hard for me to do and I always try to reason that I don’t really deserve it. But I am practicing acceptance of compliments.
My miracle card was something in my dream this morning. Just before I woke up, a stranger in the dream said to me: You’re gorgeous and you’re fertile! I was shocked, felt like saying “Who, me?” That sentence has stayed with me all day, as if it was the ultimate mom saying those words that I needed to hear. I also had some positive signs this morning in my fertility monitoring that I think are a result of the acupuncture session yesterday and doing the practice more diligently recently. So I think this is a miracle card for me, to actually believe that I am fertile. Next step, believing that I am ready for a baby and to be a Mom!
What a beautiful dream!
Sofi,
You are gorgeous and you are beautiful! It’s not a dream :)
Joanne
My most recent miracle card came in the form of a movie, which moved me to the core and made me realize and uncover the most powerful orphan that was hiding in me from past few year….”orphan that was numb to love that knows how to give love nor to receive love” :((
I sound terrible. But I never dared to open up to this feeling and always ignored, overruled and finally buried it deep inside my heart so that I never have to face it and after all these long years, I see it raising its head and screaming for support. No wonder everything seems to be a burden or responsibility to me as I lost the personal touch in every relation around me, I became more mechanical, maintaining a check list and seeing if I item on the check list is checked or not, detached with myself and the people and the nature around me, always engrossed in some thoughts and not focusing on what I have.
As I even write this up, I can feel the heaviness in my heart, my throat. I am feared all these years to face this orphan but now I think its high time. I am ready to face this orphan. Just waiting for the cues to see it more clearly.
Oops I meant……That doesn’t know how to give or receive love.
As I even write this up, I can feel the heaviness in my heart, my throat. I feared all these years to face this orphan but now I think its high time. I am ready to face this orphan. Just waiting for the cues to see it more clearly.
Sorry too many typos
MiracleHope,
A so-called diagnosis of ‘infertility’ can shake anyone’s faith in their ability to give or receive love. You recognizing that this is an orphan is a very important step in healing her, and ultimately yourself.
Thank you for having the courage to share this.
Joanne
Thank you Joanne !
Post the call on Monday, it became very clear I have “receiving” issues :)
Glad that I can see it crystal clear. Will keep opening myself and try to receive fully
My miracle card came in a couple of ways these week. I turned 40 and feel great and vibrant…and, I spent the weekend in a beautiful, loving relationship workshop that I helped to organize with 2 facilitators that I so admire, and most of the people in the room were friends and family. It was absolutely lovely to have this miracle of love and partnership and time with my husband and also see the love and relationships of my friends. The good and the bad…all real.
For my bday week, I am using a New Beginning as my medicine.
RachelSF,
Happy Birthday! It’s beautiful to hear that you are embracing your vibrant health and vitality.
Kudos to you for organizing a workshop of that sort – it sounds amazing! It’s wonderful that you were surrounded by so much love and support during your special time.
Joanne
Thank you, Joanne!
Ok. My miracle card is that I have so very much to teach a child. This kicks in in spring and summer in full force. Russian wax Easter eggs. Tulips and daffodils that sprout as result of carefully tucked away bulbs in November. Veggies planted in May that yield tomatoes, peppers, basil, kale, spinach, and strawberries all summer long. These are things my parents taught me. That can’t die with me. I need a miracle of my own. To pass these miracles on.
Bailey930,
Your comment bought a tear to my eye. Traditions that we long to pass on to our children really energizes and enlivens a strong desire for motherhood in me as well.
So beautiful! Thank you.
Joanne
My miracle card today was to accept the present and live in the moment. At least four women in my job are pregnant . at first I was feeding that orphan that said why not me why is everybody else pregnant and why not me. Today they were all pasing around pictures of their utrasounds, and for the first time I thought of something that Julia said in the last call. These pregnant women are just mirroring my desire to get pregnant is as if God was telling me this could be your reality as well. Accept it embrace it feel powerful and fertile!! I want to hold you in all you glory, I want to read you a Bed time story , I want to chase you to the top of the monkey bars….. I feel ready!!!!
Polita
Very well written. I can completely understand how you feel. 4 women in my office are also pregnant. Good thing I don’t sit with them. 2 of them are new to the team and last week when I was onsite, my manager was asking me to meet them and I could feel the resistance to somehow escape them, run away from that place. All my orphans sleeping till then got fully powered. My comments below was also about the fact that I AM READY. but unfortunately, I still feel like sitting and crying that I am not ready. I don’t know how to pacify this not yet ready orphan baby :(
Thanks to your post…..it is triggering my orphan which is direly in need of Ultimate mama’s guidance.
Miraclehope, that Ultimate mama is definitely in you. Accept her. Let her shine .this journey is very hard , full of ups and downs but we have to accept that is our journey and by going throught this experience we are learning so much about ourselves learning to love our orphans and our ultimate mama’s. Learning that sometimes we can’t control situations but we try to make the best out of it. I have been working on accepting that even if I don’t get pregnant. this whole process has made me a better person.I think there is still hope for us. I don’t know if it is the spring air but I feel very hopeful. Take care Miraclehope you are a supermama!!!
Thank you Polita for your very kind words !!
I exactly came into the same situation finding myself in the midst of 4 preggies…..needless to say, I wasn’t happy. I was checking my phone even though there were no messages just was trying to avoid their conversation. Felt very uncomfortable. But trying to get onto the train of faith and hold tight to it, no matter what I believe or don’t believe at this point of time
Polita,
Thank you for echoing these words back to me. When Julia said them to me on the call, it was really hard to absorb. I am trying to take it to heart every time I see a pregnant woman, like the local news anchor on TV and the woman ahead of me at my acupuncture appointment yesterday. And maybe the hesitation that Julia picked up on was that I don’t feel ready yet. But I also believe that you can’t wait until you are ready, as someone else so eloquently stated here. I will keep reminding myself of these words until I do feel ready!
Sofi
I am constantly looking for miracle cards and at the end of the day I found my miracle card that hit me hard, which says
“It’s a terrible thing, I think, in life to wait until you’re ready. I have this feeling now that actually no one is ever ready to do anything. There is almost no such thing as “ready”. There is only NOW and now is as good a time as any.”
I found this note on facebook. From the time i took a decision to go donor route, I have this constant nagging orphan that keeps saying “U r not ready” because
1. You are not practicing imagery properly
2. You hardly did body truth for a month
3. your healthy food choices went for a toss
4. your physical fitness sucks
5. You haven’t done detox
6. you are not getting dreams
and the list goes on..
I set a bar for myself, as usual and unless and until I hit it, I don’t feel I am ready. I kept giving my orphan strength by perpetuating its reality as my reality.
To Julia’s wonderful question, The mother in me says – don’t be judgmental, take baby steps, you are a rock star and I am right with you and we both shall make our way through this journey
Mh. I don’t know if this is helpful to you. But I have felt exactly as you have a million times. It didn’t work, because I was slacking on the practice. I miscarried because I stopped calling in. Blame orphan or you were not ready orphan has visited me gazillions of times. And I think what helped me was Julia’s advice on one of the calls to FF21. Do just this one thing. Just this one thing. And gave her ONE imagery to focus on. It’s so easy to get caught up in all the gazillions of things we could/should be doing. But when you peel it all away, what lies at the core is the fundamental need for a belief that “I can do this.” “This can happen for me.” All the imagery and BT don’t get you there, if you don’t believe that. So this post is as much advice to myself as it is you because I empathize more than you know.
Thank you Bailey for your reply, you are right, I’m working on accepting my journey and believing that this miracle can happen to me.
Dear Bailey and Polita
Thank you so much !!
Bailey – beautiful advice. I will keep that in mind. As Lori mentioned in her latest post, I have a problem receiving and accepting too. So I will work on that, that will open up my way to believe that I am truly doing and supporting myself well.
I think what Julia said last night about the quality of our practice is important. It may not be the quantity of the imageries, the # of juices you drink daily, your exercise being inconsistent, etc. but it’s about how you connect to it and feel it when doing it (whatever IT is at the time)
You are such a beautiful, loving mother and you have done such incredible work on this journey. Every post you write, every phone call you participate in and every word you speak leaves me inspired and comforted.