Egg Donation: The Fertile Heart™ OVUM Road

In a coincidence that I can only describe a miracle, my mom told me about Julia’s book just two days before we received the POF diagnosis. Something in me just knew that I had to find Inconceivable. After calling around to countless bookstores, only to be told they had no copies, I decided in a last ditch effort to walk to the used bookstore at the end of my street. And there it was — that little white spine. I devoured the book in an afternoon. It was as if part of me knew that I would need its strength to carry me through.

Olive’s little girl in her first nursery.

The day of the diagnosis, my heart was broken — ripped apart and raw. I was shocked that the thing that I wanted most in the entire world — a baby, the union of my eggs and my husband’s sperm — was not available to me. A few percentage points difference in the statistics of various egg donor clinics didn’t seem to matter much when the possibility of having children that were genetically my own had been stolen away — as if by some dark creature in the night.

On February 14th, just 6 days after the diagnosis, I formally entered the Fertile Heart community via Julia’s Valentine’s Day Fertility Support Circle  When I hung up after those 90 minutes, I knew that my broken heart could – and would – become whole again. Just six weeks later, my wonderful mom and I were on a plane down to Woodstock, NY for Julia’s Meeting Your Child Halfway workshop. Being from the Western part of Canada, this was no short trip – but not going simply wasn’t an option.  You can hear the rest of Morgan’s story on the Egg Donation as an Instrument of Healing Audio Program.

After all these years of heartbreak, miscarriages, depression, confusion, S. is here with us. Her birth was exhilarating and very emotional what a thrilling experience. We can’t stop looking at her. So many overwhelming feelings. After all these yars, we’re embarking on a new journey and even thought we have a lot to learn, we love the experience of being parents. Thank you for your wisdom, support and loving compassion. You’ve been my lighthouse, and anchor and a powerful light giving me continuous signals on how to navigate through my heart.

I remember very well when you, Julia were introducing yourseld at the Workshop in Woodstock, and said something like — all of you here have probably gone through a lot and you think this is your last stop, and some of you might be wondering what the hell am I doing here, in Woodstock, sitting in this woman’s studio with all these strangers?— And, I was, yes, wondering, what am I doing here? But, I didn’t know experiencing Julia was going to change my life, my outlook, my attitude. It had nothing to do with life style, exercise, yoga, wheatgrass, imagery, visualization, meditation, super healthy diet, acupuncture, fertility supplements blah, blah, blah, BUT with the core of ME. Who I was. I started participating in all her teleconferences and slowly digesting her teachings and opening myself up…

Thank you for your wisdom, support and loving compassion. You’ve been my lighthouse, and anchor and a powerful light giving me continuous signals on how to navigate through my heart.

I know the journey doesn’t end here and this may be just the beginning of it. Looking forward to moving ahead.