To Morgan and Fertile Heart Sisterhood:
The “Why Me?” question comes up a lot on our fertility journey and I’ve attempted to answer it in many ways over the years, but some weeks ago, you Morgan, have inspired me to go a little deeper with the answer. In one of your message board posts you shared that you’re feeling sorry for yourself and that the “Why Me?” questioning Orphan has been coming out of hiding.
In response to your question on the message board I suggested that you work with specific imagery exercises and I suggested another question for you to ponder: “Why would the Bestower of Babies choose this particular assignment for me at this particular time?”
It was great to see you engage with that question. You said:
-because I (the Bestower of Babies) know she can handle it
because I am sure she is going to be an amazing mom
because I know that through this Morgan has cultivated the ability to feel more compassion for her fellow human beings
because she has amazing support from her family and friend
because she has a special role to play in her family line
because I love her.
Thank you for these thoughtful answers, Morgan!
And true to form I’m going to suggest a few additional answers of my own.
What if the Bestower of Babies has assigned this particular assignment to you also
because she desperately needs your help
because the level of exploitation and lies in the world of baby making calls for courageous women like Morgan to speak up
because my diagnosis has revealed a disturbing fact about the use of birth control pills that women of all ages (especially young women like myself) should be forewarned about.
You see, Morgan, and all you awesome Fertile Heart Sisters out there, we humans rarely feel that the beings, whose help we seek, whether mere mortals, or “Bestowers of Blessings and Babies” need our help as much as we need theirs.
But to me, that is primarily, what we are called to do through all our challenges. To realize that we are needed.
And I can safely say, that I have met some brilliant, brave women in the last 16 years of doing this work. All I can think of is that the Bestower knows where to look for help.
My hope is that each and every one of you, continues to unravel the Mystery of this challenge and remembers that the Great Dispatcher in charge of choosing the next generation, is counting on your goodwill, the same way you are counting on Hers.
How about you? What would your answer be to the “Why me. why now?” question whether it’s baby making or any other adventure you’re wrestling with?